I haven't been around a lot lately, in the last month or so. My life has been bascally in suspended animation, a sense of pergatory... Life in limbo.
In Dec my wife got a job (great pay and less stress) in a place about 2 hours south f our home in Durham NC. She started Jan 23rd, a week after we found and moved into a great rental house in Hope Mills, a nice little town on the periphery of Fayetteville NC and about half an hour north of where she works.
In the meantime, I retain my job in Durham with a lot of hope and optimism. The job in Durham pays well, and for th emost part works fine when the inept supervisor doenst muck up the works and annoy me.
I cannot travel two hours one way to work each day and two hours to go home each day.... and I was not ready to quit, so I offered an idea of us trying to make this position one where I can telecommute. Work from home and do my job, which is basically phone sales and phone switch board.
So for now, I stay with my mom an hour from work, during the weekdays and Fridays after work, I head to hope Mills for the weekend, only to head back to moms Sunday night.
The job was going to get me a laptop and get things set up to were I can work from home.... but for the first month of this pilot program work from home on Tuesdays and Thursdays.... and work IN the office Mon, Wed and Fri.
After the initial 4 weeks, then they expect me to work Mon and Wed in the office and the rest of the time work from home,
Recently I asked if we can change up the schedule for the first 4 weeks to work in the office MOn through Wednesday, work at home Thurs & Friday. I received word today that it probably wont go as they with for me to be in the office three days a week... to be more visable".
What does that mean? I work on the telephone 8 hours a day from my office. I am not very visable currently other than holding a tour of our center on Monday mornings for new clients that started that week.
Otherwise, it's the phone and emails, in my office. I am the call center where all calls come to me first and I route calls accordingly.
I am not defending or otherwise explaining their rationale in these decisions, instead I suppose I am reconciling in my mind the meeting I will have tomorrow with my supervisor and her supervisor and how I intend on telling them the whole deal is off. Of how time has expired on this whole thing (originally I gave em 30 days to get stuff together.... that expired days ago).
Of how I am going to hand in my resignation, give em the two weeks and part ways without having anything lined up on the other end of all of this... well, exc ept a few temp agencies and possibly be an Uber driver (short term).
I feel most of this is my fault anyway as I drew a line in the sand.... then did not follow up. I let things go in my effort to help the organization (and to keep my $18 an hour job over potentially a $10 an hour job at the Grocery store in Hope Mills which will break my friggin heart for a variety of reasons).
Its time for me to move on. To back up by actions what I have said Id do.
It's time to move on, as scary as it may be for me, it is less frustrating and soul sucking as the circumstances I find myself in now currently.