Tomorrow marks my 4th anniversary with my wife. I gotta say, this has been NOTHINGg like I ever imagined/dreamed it would be. No, that's not in the good way where this exceeded any and all of my expectations. It's more of a "expectations bar lowered to beneath the floor yet still not met" sort of thing.
We have had our times, good and bad. Active and inactive, crazy and sedate.It is the best of times, it is the worst of times. It was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us.
Yet here we are, at the 4 year mark and I am hoping we last another year. Perhaps that is a good worry to have.... not to take any moment for granted and at any time I, or she, could justw alk out the door and be done with it all.
I asked my wife this am if she had been happy for the last 4 years and she said yes. Then she asked me and well.... I said we had our ups and downs, our adventures and our turmoils, but it's been decent.
Sure, I could have/should have just lied and said it has been nothing but unicorns and rainbows... I just wasn't in the mood to do so this am. She knows that a lot of the trouble that has come to past has been on her.
Perhaps, in hindsight, it was not wise to get married, then two months later her to start working on her masters degree as well as work full time. But I was behind her, I cheered her on as I was left with being Mr. Mom. Four long friggin years!
Not only did she work, and school in the evenings and weekends, she also was diagnosed with Hashimoto's... which is a "perfect storm" combination I am talking about here!
For those not familiar, this causes one to be not very energetic, definitely not physical, irritable, and just a list of other physical and mental aspects.
Light at the end of this tunnel though... December she graduates... which means less stress, which means I get my wife back. Atleast I hope I do. And her job is easing up some. The Hashimotos, well, we're dealing with it in various ways. We're managing.
In January/Feburary we'll officially celebrate our 4th year of marriage. We'll go away somewhere, just her and I. Hopefully to reconnect, reestablish that link that has been lost in the last 4 years.
I am both excited and nervous about the prospects of December/January. Will I get my wife back? Or will I get divorced by end of Summer? Both very real possibilities at this moment.